Social Anexiety

As a long term sufferer of Social Anxiety, I feel like writing about it will hopefully increase my healing and others...

 Suffering from  social anxiety is possibly the worst feeling I have ever come across in my life, it leaves me in panic attacks, severe nightmares and a decreasing in self confidence all the time. It is one of the main reasons why I wanted to start a blog as it will help me become more myself throughout my blogs and when it comes to dealing with reality. I started this suffering when I was about 1, so in year 8, and I started to experiment with make-up, and I realised there was alot of things I disliked about myself. These thoughts stayed with me for a long time, and I was very enclosed with myself and cut off others around me.

I can be very distant towards my friends and family, which causes alot of worry and concern sometimes. I haven't really started talking about how I feel to anybody, until I started to have regular meetings with a chaplin called Joey who has helped me so much and I owe alot to him, he has been there for me since the first time I had a meeting with him and although I still have anexiety, I am improving because of him, and have found that I am a happier person. So I guess that shows that telling someone is the best thing you can do, don't suffer in silence, support is the best medicing for social anexiety.

When dealing with the things I don't like about myself, I get very paranoid when out in the city or with my friends, who are all so confident and at ease with themselves, that it made me very panicky and I would suffer panic attacks, these aren't so frequent with me anymore as I have learnt to relax alot more, and I do not put myself in any uncomfortable positions. Although I do get alot of nightmares still,which entale me being alone in a crowd, or pure blackness, people I know saying horrid things to me are somethings my brain just doesn't let me forget and I have found myself asking these people if thats what they think of me even though it was just a dream it carried out into my real life.

I have also had a hard time during my roles in performing arts as I do acting, singing and dance to improve my confidence and make me feel more stable, I would not participate in any activity that would make  me feel uncomfortable about how I looked, me and my body do not get on, I have done some awful things to my body, which I regret but somehow am still not happy with these things. This is actually the hardest thing I've ever had to write so I hope this is making some sense.

My main hope for this post is to encourage other sufferes of social anexiety, that it does get better. It does improve. You do not need to change. Always remember to stay positive, each and every one of you are amazing and special in your own way, never let society label you, I have put myself through this, and am now fighting against it. Just remember that you have people in your life that love you, care about you, and want whats best for you. Even though it doesn't always seem that there are. Remember that the world is not your enemy, you can shine, and don't let SA bring you down. It does not have to be this way. I promise you it will all get better in time, and I am happy to talk to anybody for advise or questions.

Ways I deal with SA:

1. TALKING TO SOMEONE- it helps more than you think
2. FIND A HAPPY PLACE- whether that be a place in your home,outside, a song,movie it can all help.
3. HELP OTHERS- help others to help yourself, the same with encourage, I helped one special special friend (IZZY) with her SA and I realised that I could use the advice to encourage her, to encourage me.

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH FOR READING. YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL!

Summer- happy times

Well the weather has been absolutely  gorgeous and I just thought I'd express that through another blog, because it has just been a great day today. I'm doing a showcase, so I literally spent all day rehearsing and just laying about with my friends which is so relaxing and fun in this weather. 

Living the good life.

Haven't really been up to much at all, this Saturday is my last week of dance before summer ends so I have to figure out some things to do on Saturdays now.  I have had a hard past few weeks so I'm glad things are finally looking up. Yay.

Hope everybody has a beautiful hot summer, remember to smile and be happy in the sun while it lasts as we all know what the English weather is like :) 

Sorry about the video it wouldn't upload but it won't be long now!

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Video Coming Soon...

Just thought I would let everybody know that I am doing the What's In My Bag video on Wednesday the 16th July. It will be posted on youtube but I will post the link to another new post when I've completed it.

I got the inspiration from Tanya Burr, who is a well known youtuber with her own make-up collection, to do the Whats in My Bag video to start with, because I was a bit stuck for first video ideas, and she said that that's what she started with. Clearly it worked for her, so hopfully it will help my youtube channel to become a bit more promoted as alot of people do the WIMB video.

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Becoming a vegetarian

So last night I came to the decision that I will become a vegetarian. I decided this because I just do not enjoy eating meat, it's so fattening, and the way these farmers kill the animals is absolutely vile. 

I did think about it for a long time, and I just think that even though it doesn't stop factory farming, and it doesn't stop animal abuse, at least I know that I'm doing something positive for myself and for the animals. Animals do not deserve to be treated the way that they are, and I don't really know, I guess that this is just my way of showing I care for animals and that well I'm basically on their side. 

I'm aware that their are alot of opinionated arguments about vegetarianism, and vegan ism, even if you disagree with my views I would so love to hear them as it is important for me to get several different views and aspects in making my decision permanent, which is what I intend to do. I am not saying I want people to change my mind, as I am dead-set on staying a vegetarian for as long as I live, but I mean I just want to hear your opinions as I will remember them. I promise :) 

Even though I am just 15 and alot of you might think I am just being a naive teenager, I do feel I am benefiting myself from not eating animals as I now feel like a better, more whole person about the whole animal abuse ways. 

Thanks for reading you lovely people!! 

Influental people in my life..

So I thought I would write a little bit more about my life, in order for you to get a little bit more of an understanding who I am. Many people inspire me and my choices in my lofe. I came up with the idea of just listing and explaining them..

1. Michael Jackson
I know alot of people are very opinionated about Michael Jackson and there are alot of accusations thrown around because of various periods through out his life. I love Michael Jackson just because I believe he is extremly talented, He was a very strong charecter and had a lot of feelings, it hurts me when people call him names, as these people that throw these  names around never met him, never spoke to him, and if you did then I am sure he wouldnt live up to the names he was called. I think he was very generous and honnest,  he did alot for the sick in our world and he sang from the botton of his heart. I love him and I always will.

2. Beyoncė
Beyoncė is an inspiration purely for the girl-power she brings. All her songs have deep meanings, and they can relate to alot of people. She is beautiful, never done anything to befrowned upon. I love how she is a lovely strong person outiside of the music industry. She is one of the reasons I love to dance so much, I've loved her since she was in "Destiny's child". I remember I used to pr upactise her routines and I still know them now off by heart. I believe she will be my inspiration when I'm 50 years old. I'll tell my grandchildren about her haha.

3.Audrey Hepburn
Audrey Hepburn is my last inspiration because I just love her story about how she pursued her acting career, in broadway and screen around the same time which is so clever and talented. Especially growing up in the difficult times she did. She was also beautiful. Alot of people don't really know in depth her story, I learnt through primary research. I think she is just wonderful. I really hope my acting career is as succesful as her's was.

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The Nivea Daily Essentials range, are literally the most moisturising products ever, they literally make my skin feel so soft and are suitable for normal & combination skin so really they can be used on all skin types.

The refreshing 2in1 Cleanser and Toner, are great for anywhere on the body, use them whilst in the bath or just after on damp skin. They make my skin feel so soft and are so great for travelling if you don't want to take a separate bottle, so it just makes packing a little lighter. They also absorb really quickly in your skin and doesn't leave it sticky or greasy like other products. You can get this with the facial wash gel in a set together, I believe in Boots. I don't think they are that pricey at £7, for two which is very good for the quality that they are. 

The refreshing facial wash gel, is also applied while in the bath or I like to use it as soon as I wake up in the morning if I am too lazy to do the whole, Cleanse, Tone and Moist routine. It is quick, easy and super absorbent. I love how smooth it makes my skin feel. It makes my skin look healthier, I don't wear foundation as much anymore after using this, just because my skin looks alot more toned. I recommend this to people that have problems with blemishes and spots because I find that this helps alot more than certain moisturisers.

Would like to point out that this set also came with a third product but I can not remember or find it at this point. When I figure out where and what it is, I will post the review of it after a few tries with it, and post a review later on.